30 Things Challenge - 2: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. Insects, mainly spiders and flying insects.

I really don't know why I have a fear of insects, I just have for as long as I can remember. I'd say I'm mainly afraid of spiders, moths and butterflies. Seriously, just thinking about them is making me feel queezy. If I just see one, I start to feel sick. I'm so afraid of them that I can't even kill/capture them so I have to get someone else to do it. I can't even be in the same room as an insect, I have to leave. Not long ago when I was in  my drama lesson, I cried because there was a butterfly in the room hahahaha. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do when I move out of this house and into my own room when I'm at university. I couldn't think of anything worse than having a husband who is afraid of insects too because then neither of us will be able to get rid of them!

2. Machines.

This sounds really weird, but I am terrified of big and really high-tech machinery. Now this is really hard for me to explain what I mean by this because I don't mean like computers, cars or planes etc. Like, if you go on a farm or go into a factory and you see the really huge, high voltage machines that they use, they freak me out. Last week we went to an old miners museum with the school as we it had to do with a project we were doing, and there were huge sheds that had examples of machines and devices that miners would use a before the mid 20th century, like huge fans and digging machines and seriously I was freaking out. I'm getting butterflies in my tummy just thinking about it. I don't even know why I'm scared of these things, I don't know if it's just because I don't like the really loud noises they make or what. It's pretty ironic considering I used to live next to and was surrounded by hundreds of farms when I lived in Lincolnshire hahaha.

3. Pain.

Again, this is a weird one because if anyone read this and knew me, they'd be like "But you have piercings, have to take injections every day and want tattoos?" It's not that kind of pain that I'm scared of, but of someone physically hurting me or someone I love without me being able to do anything. Nothing scares me more than the thought of someone either kidnapping me and torturing me etc or having that done to someone I really care about. The thought absolutely terrifies me, and thinking about it makes me scared to move out of my parents house. It's a really morbid thing to be scared of, but I've just grown up seeing and hearing things on the news and on the internet about horrible things happening to people and I honestly couldn't think of anything worse.